Trusting In His Ways

By Lizel

I was nearing towards the end of my discernment for my upcoming plans, when the words of Bro. Mon Samson (National Director-And Lingkod ng Panginoon) were like bullets in my heart during where he invoke each of the 2011 theme: “Our Light, Our Life..Our Call..Our All” – that our way of life is meant to give life to others. That this call deserves our all for Him, that we should be radical disciples, bold evangelizers.

Prior to being a part of ALNP, I am a passionate Pediatric nurse in the Philippine Heart Center. My heart immensely burns to serve not only my patients but also my co-workers. My superiors put their trust on me which directed my professional advancement. There were more challenges and responsibilities nevertheless it opened opportunities for growth in my character, profession, and in serving more.
And as a member of the community, my relationship with God sustained me. That He is at work especially on circumstances beyond my control. I thought it is everything, but on my sixth year as a Nurse, an inner longing for something led me to discern my career. There was a constant void in what I am then lovingly doing – reflecting on it, I realize God is asking something. I began to wrestle with the truths I find in my prayer time. That He wanted me to explore another career path, to be in the academe, and a concrete call to serve Him full time. More and more I would look back on the comforts I will have to give up, but though afraid I am truly convinced God is taking me to a future more than I deserve. I then look for venues where I could serve Him best and preparing myself for His purpose. I checked on possible organizations but was hindered by so many things.

On the later part of 2010 I have to transfer residence and was blessed that it’s with one of the sisters (Diane) where I am still staying. Dianne is a former Christ’s Youth in Action member (CYA ) now serving with us in Lingkod Q.C. – Since she is also my AGmate, she knew this discernment and introduced CYA and opportunities to serve there. Taking it in prayer – I resigned and expressed my desire to serve in CYA. Keeping my fingers crossed I waited and was overwhelmed when CYA accepted me as one of their staffers. Of course I have my share of difficulties in the service but God is there and know I am well cared. Every day is learning – I’m like a seed taken out from its controlled environment and placed under the soil then exposed to the heat of the sun, and will soon grow as a tree and bear fruit.

My mission may not be the same as yours, but by believing and trusting in God’s direction it will be made clear to us. He is a God of purpose intertwined in our individuality, family, career, friends and He wants us to be in this present moment to be an evangelist, ambassador. I know I am still in the journey, following His purpose is not easy but His grace is enough. I know He is there every step of the way, with everything He has favored me. In all He has exceedingly done for me, I cannot ask for more than give thanks and share it to others.